Fighting for Peace

Life is a little weird right now. A little hard. I guess it has been for a bit since covid came into our lives. I’ve started to notice more of my control freak and irritability come out the last couple weeks. Typically those two items are closely linked with my level of anxiety and stress. And well, I am feeling a bit anxious. When is this going to be over? When is my family going to be able to return to do fun stuff outside the home like we used to? When will all this terrible and sad news stop?! How do I help the people I care about who are struggling too? I am anxious. I am nervous. I so dislike being in this state! Friends, I’m not staying here and if you’re here too, I bet you don’t want to either.

So here is what I’m doing. I am thanking the Holy Spirit for showing me where I am at and I am surrendering how I am feeling. I am turning it all over to Jesus. Because I just don’t know. I don’t. I have no answers. Yet, He knows. I listen, I meditate, I pray, I worship, I obey. He knows. That feels good. HE KNOWS. Feel that burden release that we don’t need to know? Tell yourself again.

He knows. The beginning from the end, He knows.

I am God, and there is no other;
    I am God, and there is none like me,
¹⁰declaring the end from the beginning
    and from ancient times things not yet done,
saying, ‘My counsel shall stand,
    and I will accomplish all my purpose,’
Isaiah 46:9b-10, ESV

We just need to surrender and put our trust in Jesus. We need to stop trying to figure it out and fix everything. The only fixing we need to do is on Jesus.

So tonight as I felt a bit of anxiety start to creep in, I took that moment of thinking captive and brought it to Jesus. I put on one of my favorite songs right now (The Story I’ll Tell – Maverick City Music) and I lit a candle, just to mark out the time and space, and I preached the Gospel to myself. Friends, we don’t have to stay in our yuck. We have a Savior, A Love, who wants us and even DIRECTS us to bring it to Him. So do it. Set apart some time for Him today and tomorrow and the day after, and the day after and after and after….

I think it’s important to note that in the midst of surrendering and spending time with Jesus I was also cooking dinner. We must learn to worship in every circumstance, in every task no matter how menial, repetitive or mundane. We are busy, I know. So with all we do we must make communion with God possible no matter where we are or what we are doing. It is a beautiful opportunity when we can go to a quiet place to be with Jesus, but if you are a mother quiet doesn’t come often. Learn to worship in all that you do.

Let’s light that candle, set a time and space apart for you and Jesus. Let His presence and His peace wash over you. Talk to Him about where you are at and preach the gospel to yourself. Pray scripture over yourself. Let Him be the Rock on which you stand. We are okay. We have Jesus. This too shall pass, and in His strength we will continue to stand.

Love to you,

Mrs. RevMom, M.S., Daughter of God